The Angel of Road Kill

Now more then ever I’m baffled. Last night I had dinner with four amazing, fantastic, and brilliant people. We ate, we shared, we grew as friends, and we of course laughed. Mostly we laughed about my irrational fear, a fear we now refer to as ‘the Angel of Road Kill’.

This is where I’ll begin, with what this fear was. About a year ago I had this stupidly awful irrational fear. It went something like this. Every time we passed road kill on the highway/interstate/rural road I’d think, “Ok, I hope the angel in charge of road kill gets that carcass where it is supposed to go.” My next thought followed instantaneously, “Otherwise, if he messes up I’ll wake up tonight with that dead raccoon in my mouth.” Yes, that was a literal fear of mine. I wasn’t paralyzed by it, but I did sometimes worry about that. No longer though! I have risen above worldly fears and am now worried about more concrete things like terrorism and wrinkles. But before I embarrass myself further I’ll move onto my point.

Soon I’ll be heading off to California and leaving these people and that really scares me. Will I find any other people like this in California? Will I find acceptance and belonging? My question is this: Is my fear of leaving Iowa and these new amazing people, a kind of ‘Angel of Road Kill’ scenario? Is it a valid fear and should I worry that within nine months these people could be gone? It’s entirely within the realm of possibility that these fantastic people will no longer be in Iowa when I return.

So I am in a place of confusion. There are other reasons I feel I should maybe just stay, such as Heartland. Heartland is amazing; it is not my home away from home, its home. Things are happening here that belong in epics, but instead are being lived out. Obviously, Bethel is also experiencing more or less the same things. But why leave and spend countless dollars when maybe what is happening there will happen here in Iowa soon? So I’m wondering all of this and hoping I’ll know what I’m supposed to do by the time I go to bed tonight. Hopefully, I’ll also go to bed without a raccoon in my mouth :) So much more conquering my fear....

Welcome to the World According to Ev

So I was thinking about something today. I was thinking about the fact that I think a lot. I think most of the day (two points for me) and usually what I’m thinking about, my viewpoints and everyday commentaries are fairly funny to people (when and if I vocalize these views). So I decided to make a blog to voice these opinions and so here I am. Here I am and wouldn’t you know I have no idea what to write next?

I guess I could ask you if you’ve seen ‘Lost’, but if you know me well then I’ve already asked you that twelve times. I could ask your favorite song (mine is ‘Hide and Seek’ by Imogen Heap), but usually most people can’t identify their very favorite song. I could ask about your political affiliation, your love life, or your religious background. But honestly, none of that interests me on here because the answers would be fairly predictable. The answers would go something like this.

Q/ Political Affiliation? A/ I’m an independent.
Q/Love life? A/ What love life are you referring to?
Q/ Religious Background? A/ Well I went to church but I kind of fell out of sync with it all. Now I’m more concerned with God than a man-made religion.

So I won’t ask any of that that stuff, instead I’ll state a simple fact and it is this: my name is Evan Olson and this is my blog. You can now consider yourself inside of my little head.